The ninth move for this little family is officially over, well, sorta.
With every move into a new place comes a new list of things to find to make the house work for us. That includes new ways to organize and new routines. This means unpacking the kitchen first thing when you get in the new place, living with it for 2 weeks and deciding how it should really be organized. I'm currently in this kitchen process, again.
There are still boxes of pictures I haven't hung up on the walls yet. There is still a box of randomness sitting on my dresser waiting to either be displayed or tucked neatly away in closet to discover again in a year when we move. I can't seem to bring myself to take care of these items. They are always left at the end because I can't make decisions about them or I've just lost motivation. This time around its a loss of motivation.
We have lived in this house for 2 weeks today and I am already over it. While the town is a little different than the last one we were in, I still can't seem to make it feel like home quite yet. Some places we have lived, it takes me 2 days and it feels perfect, these last two have been a struggle. It feels like that first move to Kentucky almost 4 years ago.
Georgia always felt like home, from the second I stepped foot into that apartment, it just felt like ours. South Carolina was nice because we were so close to friends, even though it was short lived. For the life of me, I can't remember what Arizona felt like at the beginning, it was only 18 months ago after all. I know how I felt at times in the middle and I know how I felt at the end, but 6 months later I have a completely different view about going back to the desert.
The last two moves have really left a toll on me. I find a lot of comfort in seeing Cardinals in the yard. I have seen a male and female cardinal in our new yard few times.
Just now, while I am sitting here typing I look out the window to see the female sitting on the fence, then the male follows close behind her. They just sit there waiting for a few moments and then go on their way. It seems every time I need some encouragement there they are again. I saw a couple of cardinals in our last yard too.
The truth is everyone finds comfort in the things they want to see. Its a reminder for me that even this place can feel like home as long as I allow myself to see it that way.
A little bit of a ramble today but its just another reminder, that the adventure continues....
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